I just wasn't made for these times.

I just wasn't made for these times.
I think I have decided to quit doing wedding photography. At least for a while, a couple of years. I had a very stressful Summer because I worked with my regular photography business every workday and then did weddings almost every weekend, sometimes Fridays and Saturdays. It pretty much go me fed up with it all, especially because I stopped enjoying the stories of the people I photographed and started looking at it as a box that needed to be ticked.
Don't get me wrong, when I was there in the moment - I always felt it, and I did my best. In some senses it was, because of this, my best wedding season from a technical point of view. The stories I told; I captured them better than ever. The photos were of a higher level than they've ever been before, and my clients were roaring with praise. I should be soaring, should be feeling that lure to get better, but instead I've felt mostly boredom, stress and inadequacy. Also, I see my fellow wedding colleagues working hard and enjoying themselves so much more, and I only feel like I shouldn't be taking their clients. Shouldn't be meddling in a business I don't intend on actually pursuing full-time. I love other parts of photography more, and they are not compatible with wedding photography. Like studio lighting and creating and bending light, and posing and composition. All things that can be a part of wedding photography of course, but that aren't for me. My style of shooting weddings is intimate and personal, and I love the result but I don't enjoy the process of it anymore. Maybe I'll come back around to it, who knows. But as of right now, I'm stepping down for a while. In the meantime, here are a bunch of photos from this Summer's wedding season, that I really like. - Emily